Yesterday

Yesterday afternoon I found myself back in a place I had hoped I would not need to revisit in a hurry. A place I had not been for about 18 months: the gynaecologist. I have recently had a cancer scare and because of my history was set up for an urgent appointment. A lot has … Continue reading →

Moving on.

The year I spent away from church was one of the happiest of my life. I had fallen out of love with my home church, the people, the politics. I saw less and less of God there and more and more of people. I loved that church with my heart and soul. I was working … Continue reading →

Sand

Some of my happiest childhood memories  are there. Annual family holidays, staying  in  the  same  chalet, overlooking the beach. Days spent building sandcastles, getting sand in our sandwiches, running to the  nearby cafe for an ice cream that  would  seem to melt before  our eyes. Clear blue  sea that was dotted  with  the  occasional boat … Continue reading →

Journey

I’m still struggling with the aim of this blog and know that it must appear a bit all over the place at times. I have so far touched upon my depression, CBT, POF and miscarriages.All of which are pretty serious topics! I know however that I have not been as completely open here as I … Continue reading →

Delight

I recently came across this quote from the amazing Maya Angelou and knew I had to share it here. It sums up what I dream of and why I have named this blog ‘Learning to be a butterfly’.

31

I have sat on this post for a while having written it but not feeling brave enough to press ‘publish’. Today seems the right day to share this. Please be gentle with me 🙂   I am not bad at remembering dates. On January 30th this year I nervously went in to my doctors appointment … Continue reading →

New beginnings?

This poor blog has been abandoned of late left to float around empty in the massive blog universe. There are many reasons for this one being pure laziness, another being uncertainty of what to share and how to write it all down. I follow an amazing writer on twitter and read her blog regularly. We … Continue reading →

Knee jerk reaction

I don’t know what memories you have of high school? I sure have plenty. Probably enough to fill volumes of very dull anecdotes. What has always stood out for me since leaving high school a lifetime ago, going to sixth form and then eventually to uni; is that I am not the type of person … Continue reading →

Thankful

I led a home group a few weeks ago where we looked at Paul’s words in Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Even when I was a Christian newby I have always been encouraged by this verse. Sometimes … Continue reading →

Week 11!

This CBT malarkey is getting haaaaarrrrd!!! The last couple of weeks we have been looking at my panic attacks. I’ll never forget my first attack when I was roughly 15 years old. I suffered a few more over the next few years, and hoped/presumed that as horrible as they were they would just be something … Continue reading →